Revolving

When I was young, my mother was a cake decorator (and bakery/deli manager).  She was an artist with icing, and technology was not such that it is today; so that's saying something.  One item I recall is the turn-table she used when crafting the sugary canvas.  Round it went as she turned with one hand and iced/decorated with the other.  She also used a smaller device to rotate and create icing roses. 

 

There was a task to perform or an evaluation to make with each turn of the table or pin.  Sometimes, situations in life seem to revolve - to come around over and over - and it can be vexing, especially regarding wellness.  I'm no yo-yo-dieter, but my weight has fluctuated by 25-30 pounds over the decades like that proverbial yo-yo; and at the moment, it's lost on me just who is holding the string. 

Each time I pulled off the "trick" of mastering my strength and body composition, I think I'm set to move away from the endless self-scrutiny.  Yet I eventually feel the pull of gravity and the tug of my waistband like a force inescapable as I attempt to resist the avalanche to no avail; and I end up at the ceiling of my weight (not a nice place to be).  Like Paul, I lament over my inability to simply do what I truly desire to do and maintain my size for more than a few years at a time (Romans 7:14-21); I know it is best for me to remain lean and healthy, but my flesh thwarts my intentions.  Like a bad song repeating itself over and over in my head, the resisted weight revisits.

Jotting with Johnna

• Have you had issues that revolve in your life, despite your resistance to them?
• When have you noticed these problematic tendencies occur - is there a commonality?
• What might the issues that vex you be attempting to teach or offer you?
• How might you explore the messages of your menacing behavioral offenders?
• Where do you sense answers coming from in your body - what sensations arise?

Remember:  the old adage is that what we resist persists, and also that things repeat in our lives until we learn what it is they seek to teach us and until we grow in that part of our lives.

Stay tuned.  Stay focused.  Stay well.